The fact that now its more than 6 months that i moved out of my beautiful and protected nest, it does not deter me from saying that i miss my home and my hometown (though how much i hate that city...why do i hate it...maybe the reasons are lot or just one...better not talk abt it).
In March, i did visit my hometown for a week and believe me it was a relief to be back amidst those known faces and roads. Today when i travel in Mumbai, i know i am safe but i dont know where the path leads...i know the people wud be gud, but still cant hold back the numerous doubts that come to mind.
Coming back to my hometown, i would say it has something, something that i still long for. Though it misses the warmth and spirit of Mumbaikars, it has something of its own...you can say the sweetness and the raw beauty...the charm of its own.
Things that i wud recall from my past and wish to re-live in Kolkata would include:
- I wish to be back amidst my mad gang in TIS....seriously, i have never enjoyed life as much as i did in that 1 and a half years: from drinking to bitching, gossiping, sharing pain, celebrating, laughing, and above all spreading the madness that made the environment arnd us so bright...I love my mad gang :)
- I wish to be bacl to my college days...i could have used them in better ways...cud have been friends with PG from day1, enjoyed every moment without worrying or wondering abt others, could have concentrated more on my studies and been a CA by now so that my parents cud also be proud that their daughter holds a degree, could have shopped in the big mall infront of the college, read more books, met new people, and by now i wud have been a smiling me.
- I wish to walk down the whole of PArk Street once again...this time with my buddies...enjoyng pastries and chocolates with them...wish to walk down from Park Street to Exide again, meanwhile, getting drenched in the strong showers. i wish to make a round of victoria grounds once again...i wish to be back with my gang in the theatres for morning shows.
- I wish to return to my students-shruti, shrishti, rishabh, richa, achita, khusboo, and komal—They gave me the love that cant be described in words....i was not just their teacher, they were not just students...the bonding was beyond any description....they made me feel like an elder sister...and believe me i have learnt more than what i taught....i miss them a lot!! i wish i cud bond the same way with my kids :)
- I wish to return to my childhood and correct my mistakes...mistakes of not identifying between good and bad...mistakes of adding pain to someone else's life...mistakes of not respecting my elders...mistakes of not realising the importance and value of relationships :)
- I wish to return to school where i first time stepped outside home and it became the second home...where i found my first set of friends, my first set of teachers, my first learning in life, and also my first crush!!! I wish to walk again with my mom through the same path...i wish to hang out with the same set of friends.
- I wish to return to Howrah, the same address, the same building....and the same neighbours....wat fun we used to have...all from the same school...we used to study together, eat together, and play together....there was no difference and parents were least bothered where the kids were lying :) I wish to play Holi there, burn crackers on Diwali, celebrate Saraswati Puja, dance on terrace in the rain, play hide and seek looking for 15 kids at a time :)
- I wish to be back in my mom;s lap...where i spent the first few years of my life...protected and safe. She wiped all my tears with her saree's dangling end...where she used to run and pcik me up in her arms on a small noise...
- I wish to return to my childhood where my grandfather used to shower me with chocolates and gifts...where my nani's place was a fun, where my uncle's were together and loved me the most, where i was the centre of attraction for most.
- I wish to return to my childhood so that i can return to those Durga Puja melas with my parents...and i dont have to share my ice-cream with anyone.
- I wish to return to the days when i hated Puchka so that i can develop the taste... which somehow till date i cud not manage to fade...
- I wish to return to those days when i waited for my friends on our way to tutions and had to bear their lame excuses for being late...i wish i cud return to those days when we used to window-shop everything from a bindi-to a-bhindi :)
- I wish i cud return to those days of sneaking into a friend's place and watching the first adult movie of our life.
- I wish i cud return to those days when we used to roam in markets and theaters by giving excuse of extra classes in college and tutions,
- I wish i cud return to those days when i developed taste for maths.
